I finished last in the first match I ever shot. A few of the folks that beat me that evening long ago still shoot regularly, too. We all have to start somewhere!
I don't have a problem with finishing poorly. As long as I don't regress. I did worse at this match than in any of my previous (2 other) GSSF matches. I think I've lost whatever little bit of my mind I once had.
When I despair, I remember that all through history the ways of truth and love have always won. There have been tyrants, and murderers, and for a time they can seem invincible, but in the end they always fall. Think of it--always.